If you’re a regular reader of this blog, you’ll know that my dream is to leave my corner of the world a slightly better place. I value kindness and generosity. I also prize creativity and effort over whiz-bang, flash-in-the-pan success. With such a seemingly wholesome approach, you might be surprised to learn that I wrestle big time with my own demons…
Demons that jump out at me from the mirror shouting:
Your face is too thin!
Maybe you should get braces again – your right tooth is crooked!
Ha ha! Your haircut makes you look like a boy!
Oh my God! Your eyebrows aren’t symmetrical!!!
(And those are just the criticisms about my appearance. There isn’t sufficient space in this post to address what the demons say about my talents, or lack thereof.)
Perhaps I’m not alone in having these thoughts, but it sure seems like it sometimes. In case you’re interested, when I’m assaulted by my demons, my go-to cure is…
- Lots of mindless research on the internet (i.e. lately, when I remember, I’ve been trying to do the muscle-building, cheek-enhancing facial routine here)
– followed by –
- A self-imposed internet and glossy magazine holiday
- A session of volunteering with New York Cares – nothing better than helping others to get you off of focusing on yourself
- Laughter (Most recently, I amused myself by accidentally vacuuming up one of my athletic socks. When I went to retrieve it from the bag, I was thrilled to find the bathroom tile I had vacuumed up earlier in the week.)
- Creating my vision of beauty through art or music. (If you’ve never been, please visit my Etsy shop here. And, if you want to hear/see me perform this week and are in the NYC area, I’ll be onstage at the Lincoln Center’s Rose Hall on Friday.)
In the meantime, I’m pinning my hopes on a just-emerged eyebrow hair. With any luck (and a lot of peer pressure from the hair follicle world) I’m hoping that a few other eyebrow hair buddies will be inspired to hatch so that I end up with symmetrical eyebrows. Maybe then everything in my life will be perfect.
(I can always hope.)